The travelling bit of my adventure is probably going to take some time. I'm simply not in a phase of life that lends itself to travel. I am, however, in the very stage of life in which I can do things I've never done before.
For example:
I'm preparing to have a child in Kindergarten. I'm going to a PTA meeting for the first time next week. I'm anxiously awaiting the day we learn who her teacher will be, and if she will be in the same class as her bestie.
I'm also in the middle of a project that will pay me real money--while I've done those before, this will be the first since I left my career and became the queen of this household. My crown is lost somewhere in the mess, if you happen to be wondering about that...
I think there are a number of things lost in the mess around here. I've lost track of a number of the things that make me me. I'm lost somewhere between my 99th viewing of Wreck-It Ralph, and the 45,000th time I've had to pick up all of the couch cushions off the floor and put them back on the couches. Somewhere, in all of that, is a girl who loves to have serious conversations with other adult human beings. A girl who writes down the things that make her smile and the things that make her sad--and in writing makes them make sense. A girl who loves to teach, arrange, plan, prepare, persuade, and ponder.
I'm happy. It isn't that sort of lost where you feel miserable all of the time because things are just wrong. It's the sort of lost where maybe you feel like you have amnesia and you're forgetting what you used to be like. Maybe it'll be like The Majestic, where you like the forgetful version of yourself better than the one who remembers everything...
I don't want to remember everything about who I was before. I don't need to... I just know there are some things I want to bring with me into the future, and I need to find them before I leave this part of my life... and with Kindergarten-Mom just around the corner, I have a feeling this part is counting down.
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